Eh...

i'm always wanting to start a new blog.

ALWAYS.

but i always come back to my baby:

this art blog.

sooo, i'll keep it.

it's all me.

it's everything i love.

i don't care who sees.

so what? 

it's not entirely about art i find and share with you guys.

it's personal, nonetheless.

and i'm proud of it.

A. Pretzel

i wish i was involved in yoga classes.

wish i also some calamari from Cheesecake Factory

and a good book to curl up with.

i want to go out more,

so i can have things to take pictures of.

it's hard to be inspired by the same four walls

everyday.

Beyond Eager

i haven't written anything in the longest time.

because i have nothing to talk about!

i'm beyond ready to get to a goal size.

shoot, a place where i'm comfortable with my stretches

would. be. awesome.

i'm ready to buy jewelry,

and film for youtube.

i'm ready to move forward.

What the Fuck Am I Doing?

i've gained 5 more followers in a few hours...

wow!

i posted like, 3 more things last night,

and this morning i gain five more.

okay then, haha.

i think i'm going to need this personal blog.

i better make it soon...

...as soon as i finish up some homework and eat.

on a darker note,

mom doesn't want me to stretch my ears

(i could easily continue if i had all metal sizes, but i don't)

my next size are white acrylic.

ugh.

so i had to tell her eventually.

she doesn't understand that's it's the only thing

i look forward to,

and i like the natural feel to it.

the jewelry, everything.

but yes, i've got to get this back to my art blog.

and make another blog filled mainly with my ramblings.

mmkay?

mmkay.

20 people followed my semi-abandoned hippie tumblr!

this excites me,

fills me with motivation!

i just might go through with the new blog, too.

of course, i'll keep this one,

but i want to challenge myself.

i want to see how intriguing i can make 

a documentation about myself.

i want to use as few "found" photos as possible.

i want to look back and realize a great portion of a project

was created by me.

wouldn't that be lovely?

i'm oh so excited, now.

1. Wrinkled Pages

skin mellows to the faint smell of soap, and everything becomes silent.
i hear nothing but the ice outside, and habitual buzzing inside my head.
too habitual to be dubbed a noise.


i spend my snow day surrounded by books and work.
and my thoughts, of course.


maybe i should start one last blog?
one where i try to substitute photographs with imagery.
or maybe i can take a daily photo to add unto short messages.


everyday. i must blog everyday.


something, to change the mood.
everything has been looking deep grey lately...
that must change... i must change
into what i presume is a better human being.


why not let others join the ride in this vintage convertible?
i attempted to make a tumblr,
sharing my hopes and dreams to be worn in, and lovely.
but no one cares, and it's a hassle to maintain.


so i shall more-than-likely start another blog.
a blog aspiring to be beautiful.


just like me, aspiring and whatnot.


done.

Snow Day and Simplicity

i think i'm getting sick of big meals

and fast food.

i'm finding out i much rather eat

some angel hair pasta w/sweet italian sausage ragu sauce

than eat cheeseburgers and fries right now.

i'll always be addicted to soda,

but i feel good when i drink water.

GREAT when it's iced tea.

i have two days off for snow days.

so i'm gonna organize myself,

my calendar

and look up these delicious-looking recipes

from the cooking channel!

ahaha!

i'll be stretching up soon!

told my mom about it and she's not happy.

i think she thinks in stereotype and craziness

so i made her an informative video.

we'll see where this goes.

ta ta for now!

you guys are dying down, because I'M dying down

lo siento,

pero yo tengo mucha tarea hacer.

(i'm sorry,

but i have a lot of homework to do.)

i will try to post more!

but right now....it's pretty hectic.

oh! and told my mom my wanting to stretch my ears.

and she's not cool with it, ahaha!

so i've decided to make her a "movie"

about why i want to

how it benefits

and fill it w/pretty pictures and youtube videos.

ahaha toodles, loves.

i'll be back eventually.

busy, busy, busy.

i'm nothing like my mom wished for me to be; she tells me everyday how i can "improve," but i get happier when i do things the way i want.

sorry mom.

tough toodles.

Once Again

my mom and i are on

two COMPLETELY different wavelengths.

showed her my friend's writing

which i found to be beautiful.

and all she was was negative diction.

she's very close-minded, mind you.

and is just a skimmer when it comes to reading.

she doesn't really think about what she's reading.

soooo, that could be why.

and it's ridiculous. she went on a 30 minute rant

about how "off" i was for being inspired by

"negativity"

when in fact, that poem wasn't giving off negativity

typical.

don't even wanna talk about it anymore.

she's ridiculous and bothers me.

Showing Off Shit

if anyone can help, it'll be wonderful.

i'm trying to figure out how to post

when school starts back up for me.

i guess if i wanna talk about clothes

or makeup,

i can try to do it on campus?

or take organized photos and post them on here?

maybe say when i get a chance, 

i'll try to make a video or something.

i'm not sure yet,

and i'm not sure i can/want to stop cold turkey...

we'll see, i guess.

Taking Over: Hair Update

just a quick update.

i'm sitting here now with a showercap over my head.

letting a conditioner sink in.

i tried timing how long it would take me

to wet and put conditioner

and two-strand twist my hair

and it took about an hour

oh! including mixing together the homemade leave-in.

that's not too bad during my deadest day of school.

i want to see if i can keep this up!

so far, so good!

there's a woman on youtube

(kimmaytube)

who is VERY educated on going natural.

we'll see how it all turns out

after i'm done with my first co wash.

also, there's another girl who's caught my eye.

she talks about her stretching experience thus far

i find her totally adorable!

(eyeswideshut13)

she doesn't show up in a youtube search

but kimmaytube does!

both of them inspired me to up my video footage,

hahaha! wish me luck on everything!

Eat. Pray. Learn.

i'm educating myself more

on God's word,

myself,

co-washing,

loving my hair tender,

stretching,

blending,

and writing on a higher level.

for once, i'm feeling content.

thank you, God.

for clearing up some things for me.

(if you guys want, tell me if you wanna learn anything

about stretching or the natural hair attempt)

glad i see so many people taking a peek

at my blog, thanks!

Turn Over Youtube?

i think when i start my stretching journey

(or maybe before)

i'll start making youtube videos

i can't promise anything

... but i might do it.

i have a mac book now,

so i can practice i movie,

and practice speaking in front of a camera.

a lot of good can come from it.

i need to update it anyhow

sooooo...we'll see.

Despite the Headache, I Feel Free

i finally was allowed to wash my own hair!

(and the crowd goes wild!)

it was a learning experience,

but i honestly don't mind doing it.

since it hadn't been washed in so long,

there was hair EVERYWHERE!

i think i did the bantu knots...decently

for a first-timer

not good enough to go out publicly in, though!

haha!

so i'm looking up styles for it

as well as natural conditioners.

i learned what "co-washing" means

and i'm excited to see where this process goes.

wish me luck!

i'm jus ready to brew some iced tea

and take some vitamins.

mmmhmmm.