shoot,
wish i felt like she looked.

Just an Update

the bantu knots while they're down!

so far, they're looking nice:

day 3 and no problems,

just need more scarves to cover up the back,

when it gets messy.

since my hair is curlier back there.

the other photo is what i shall replace in the (now) 14G

right lobe.

since the random pink tongue ring seems to scream:

HEYLOOKATMEALLCRAZY!

ahaha!

just an update about me.

later!

Despite the Headache, I Feel Free

i finally was allowed to wash my own hair!

(and the crowd goes wild!)

it was a learning experience,

but i honestly don't mind doing it.

since it hadn't been washed in so long,

there was hair EVERYWHERE!

i think i did the bantu knots...decently

for a first-timer

not good enough to go out publicly in, though!

haha!

so i'm looking up styles for it

as well as natural conditioners.

i learned what "co-washing" means

and i'm excited to see where this process goes.

wish me luck!

i'm jus ready to brew some iced tea

and take some vitamins.

mmmhmmm.

Because it's Not My Hair

i thought deeply on and off

for several days

about why i seem to care less about myself.

i think it's because i haven't found myself, yet.

a conscious struggle, i suppose.

it doesn't help when your hair is done up

in a way you absolutely HATE.

i feel like my hair does not belong to me.

it belongs to my mother.

so why give it tender loving care,

when i can't do what i please with it?

that doesn't make any sense, now does it?

i guess from there,

the hatred for my hair flows like poison

through my veins

and then i just don't feel like myself. period.

it'd bad enough that i don't know who i am to begin with.

but add the fact that i KNOW i HATE 

the way my hair is slicked back

with layers of gel.

*shivers*

i feel like someone else can take care of this body.

because it's certainly not mine.

Bantu Knots

that hairstyle Jada Pickett sported during

a matrix movie

is actually easier to get than i would've thought!

they're called bantu knots.

if you click here,there's step by step on how to do it.

and literally, it's easy.

you just part your hair

and twirl it into a rope

and it'll coil onto itself

into those spirals

and voila!

you can wear it up like that, or unravel once dry

for some nice curls.

what i plan to do to my hair once i wash it.

just wanted to share, as usual!

here's the twist i was talking about.

there's also one where instead of rolling the hair,

you can braid it, or two-strand twist it before making the

coils around your head.

just whatever works best and fastest for you!

i'm excited- wish me luck for when i do it!

Post 101: Merry Christmas/ Christmahanukkahkwanzza

well, i just realized i've exceeded 100 posts

*throws confetti for self*

haha, and now it's christmas, too.

i'd to say Happy Birthday to Jesus, mainly.

i remember i'd say that AS SOON AS i woke up

when i was younger.

i never should let God fade away in my life.

any who, i'm trying to make a quick post,

since mom wants us in bed

and soon after presents go down over here,

we're heading to grandma's

who has no wifi for my laptop

*sob*

well, that'll mean i'll have time for my fourth art project!

THEN I'LL STOP I SWEAR!

haha, i got inspired by a tumblr called

Black Fashion

so i'm gonna draw a chocolate sister

with an animated and HUGE afro

and red lips.

or maybe some other psychedelic color?

who knows?

i'm feeling an inner soul child arise.

because every photo with a curl

or bright pattern

turns me on.

in later posts (when i have the time and internet)

i'll post about bantu knots

w/a how-to video

and a step-by-step website

and more art, of course.

i will HOPEFULLY try to wash my hair

condition it

and try the bantu knots and unravel them

if my mom permits.

she better, haha!

happy holidays, everyone!

We're as Different as Pluto and the Sun

so i start my drawing process

on my third art project.

and mom waltzes in talking about my two "models"

(aka-googled photos to draw from)

are ugly and kunta-kente-looking.

umm, excuse YOU.

i happen to admire their hair and shit.

even though you just LOOOVE the fact of hair that lays FLAT down

whether straight or plastered to your head.

I FUCKING DO NOT.

you're narrow-minded,

and that's very narrow-minded to say.

and out of ALL times,

when you want me to 

"stop talking about it and just do it"

you say NOTHING about the fact that i'm trying to study

except "i want you to stay off the computer for a week"

and she knows damn well we're not doing anything over break

my computer has it all

LET ME FUCKING LIVE THE WAY I WANT DURING BREAK!

acknowledge the shit you've been waiting for me to do!

and stop nagging!

wow. AGAIN

you have soured my mood.

Going Natural Doesn't Mean You Think Yourself an African Goddess

Black Hair Stereotypes

amen to the article

because my mom and i have fought for months about this.

i definitely want to go natural,

or at least have yarn braids.

unfortunately, 

the whole world doesn't think like this writer.

and that was my mom's main issue:

me looking like kunta kente,

and everyone thinking of me as an african soul sista

(without the salon's care, she says)

and even though that's a stereotype i've heard before,

people shouldn't be judged about their hair.

i don't care if i am.

sure, i want to date a white guy.

and it might be harder to find one that way

since i assume they're intimidated by black women as is.

but i don't care.

because it's MY hair

and i should be able to style it anyway i please

without influences from society distracting me.

i honestly think wild manes of hair are stunning

and gorgeous.