Side Note:

be sure for any newbies on my blog

(whenever/if i get them)

to look at the archives somewhere down the right.

if you go to october and december,

you'll see the more interesting art posts,

and less of my personal ramblings.

of course, they're sprawled out...

BUT, there's a good chunk I wrote up

 to share with ya'll toward the beginning of my blog.

check it out!

Natural Hair: Research

so, i've joined a black hair forum.

so i can figure out what to do with my hair.

so far, i've found a blog worth looking at:

Urban Bush Babes

also, they helped me find a lot of videos for my hair type.

i think i'm a 3a-3c type.

umm, learned about ACV rinses,

i've had them done in the past, but not with diluting!

also learned that sulfates probably aren't good,

sealing my ends...

i'm taking notes! you should join a forum, too!

if you're feeling lost like me.

Ebay and a Roll-Up Measuring Tape is All You Need

since i'm so low on funds

i've decided that ebay and thrift stores will be where i shop

i've found quite a few things that i want just on ebay!

there's quite a few staple items i need,

and i found them on ebay.

i just need a measuring tape

and google, "how to measure in seam"

so i can make sure everything fits.

perfect!

feeling better already!

I Understand My Faulty Wardrobe!

i've realized what my wardrobe lacks...

(aside from many key staple items)

texture!

i noticed almost everything in my closet and drawers

are cotton.

cotton, cotton, cotton.

i think layering cotton on cotton looks so childish!

and i'm missing simple shirts and such, too.

where's my sheer pieces? my flow-y pieces?

my bulky pieces?

NO WHERE.

well, my closest has a problem,

and it has admitted it!

okay, bye now.

What I Write in the Mornings

this is something that came to me at 7:03am while watching Coco Before Chanel and thinking about Nirrimi's writing style. i jotted it down in my cell phone- the nearest thing to write in, enjoy:

I get all the jewels in the world,

every shade of red across my lips

and any silk I desire.

All for a fair sex-trade.

He buys me these things. I adore them.

I feel nothing when he mounts me,

and I'm glad to be as numb as a corpse.

I dwell in acting, so moaning at the right moments

to boast his ego comes naturally.

It's the flushing I can't fake.

Why would my bruised hymen make my blood flow any faster?

My First Knitting Project

i found a site that had links to first projects

other than a scarf,

since it lasts a long time

and is usually one solid color

and one type of stitch.

sooo, i decided on this paw print washcloth!

i'm excited to start it!

here's the website:

http://www.suite101.com/content/great-beginner-knitting-patterns-a33871

The Most Beautiful Suicide

this is Evelyn McHale, 

who took her life during the depression.

she jumped off the empire state building (!!!)

and landed on top of a limousine, 

completely destroying the vehicle

yet she remained looking peaceful.

here's the full, amazing story

HERE

Oh My Gosh, I Love Teachers

so you see...

i was having a pretty crappy summer.

an even crappier day...

and a middle school orchestra teacher was able to change that:

she remembered our talks about LUSH, and she bought me some!

she didn't have to do that!

...but she did.

wow.

there's so many teachers that trust me and think the world of me.

i have to remember that when i have days 

where i wonder about my existence.

i've had a junior english teacher 

that wrote my recommendation letter with so many compliments,

it literally made me cry.

shoot, i have a middle school social studies teacher

that still texts me and wants to catch up over lunch

with me and a friend.

i can't ever forget how much potential 

all of these past teachers see in me.

it's amazing.

Spiderman Memes

captions added to the 1960s spiderman cartoon

is genius!

just google it, and you'll find some.

here's a few i've found for you!

the tuna one is my facebook default, haha!

it's from a kenan and kel episode.

i can post the video on here, if you wish ha.

The Final Inspiration for Me to Begin Knitting

an arthur episode dedicated to it!

i'm watching it now, enjoy!

Yay, it's Twixwell!

*breathes heavily*

thanks for following!

i'm glad you're a blogger, too!

blogging is definitely addictive, haha!

rape

in my birthday suit from the night before
yet to realize someone wanting more.

i step into the kitchen, ready to eat
a man, some stranger is ready to meet.

the door slams open
he rushes in.

should i run? should i scream?
i don’t know where to begin.

before i know it, i’m pinned to the ground.
i feel too worthless, to hope to be found.

he’s gone, and i stay
he ate me away

i find no reason to lock the door
why should i? i’m a certified whore.

how could this happen?
i felt so safe.

but now i sit here,
soul and hymen agape.

let me rot, let me drown.
anyone who survives this

should have no desire to be around.


**side note: i have never been raped. this just came to me during one of my early morning rustlings.